Hey guys.
I wasn’t going to put up a personal blog post this year, for
fear I couldn’t squeeze out any more positivity, but lookie here, I can.
This year has been awkward, but the light shone bright
anyhow. I have learned so much and have become so established personally that I
feel very accomplished. I’m working harder too. And just like that, I have to
work harder. Because before things were given to me, and that is not so
anymore.
Although the essence of being denied (I used that word in my
last post, may change it) is not feeling worthy of something, I’m just at that
point in which I do not feel I can be denied anything, in essence. In essence,
my worth does not come from the journalist who decides they want to talk to me,
or the person who decides they want to invite me somewhere, or the publicist,
or the artist (or who wants an interview…which had always been a biggie). I’ve
gotten by on a ton of no’s, and some blocks. That hasn’t changed. What has
changed is I know at least three (if I could put a number on it) times as much
as I did last year at this time. Many people do not know that. But hell,
they’ll live, they’ll learn.
It’s been a huge transition in assertion for me. Moment of
silence to my former self. (______). I experienced a paradigm shift in
thinking. This is good. I know for sure I do my best. And then when
that doesn’t work, I try harder.
Clearly it’s been three years. I’m a little jaded, but I can
still hear the music for what it is, thank God. Some people in this industry do
not actually like music—or the music they are promoting. I am not one of them.
Most blogs fail within their first three months. I am two years from this being
considered by the IRS as a hobby. Yet, it’s still just the beginning folks.
But one things for sure. I’m still here. Still kicking. And
I am not planning on going anywhere.
(And also, to add on to that, some people don’t know what to
do with me when they first meet me, but a few years go by and they realize I’m
not going anywhere and they warm up to me…
…Just thought I’d like to add that.)
Thanks for all of the readers, publicists, photographers,
artists that support (and also, I’d like to add, another interesting tidbit,
I’d like to thank everyone that has sent positive energy to me). You’re dope.
See ya,
TR aka
@GirlBlueSTL
